I’ve been really stressed out and moody lately, I’m not going to get into specifics… Just a lot going on! It’s not like my life sucks, cuz it doesn’t… it’s all good things! Wedding, Work (making money), going back to school, did i mention wedding stuff? (and all the fun little arguments that come with not pleasing everyone with your choices) lol… yeah, i seriously have a lot on my plate right now and it’s not doing me any good!
I stepped on the scale over the weekend… I’ve lost almost 10 pounds! This isn’t good… I can’t really lose weight because I’m already almost too skinny… it starts messing with how things work…
**shield your eyes men, if you get grossed out**
I’m gonna get kinda personal… sorry…
My period was 7 days late this month… Not to mention that I’ve been miserable and cramping the past 3 weeks… stress and weight loss are not good on this body! I went a whole summer without one when i was in high school and vowed I would never be that underweight again because I didn’t want to risk any health issues… and thank goodness I am not as skinny as i was back then… but I'm still not in the healthy range right now… so you guys need to hold me accountable.. i need to start eating better and gain the weight back!
Stress also wears you out emotionally… I know you all have experienced this at least at some point in your life…
Last night, after Josh helped me out with some wedding stuff, I lost it… I had been getting frustrated and just started crying… for no good reason. It’s a good thing he understands me so well… he didn’t tell me to stop acting like a baby, didn’t ask me what was wrong… just gave me a hug and said “I know you have a lot going on right now… It’s all going to work out! You’re strong Zaneta! You’ll get through this!”
And he’s right…
Sunday before church I couldn’t stop worrying about things and thinking about everything and all of a sudden a song popped into my head…
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
when sorrows like sea billows roll;
whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul.
It is well with my soul,
it is well, it is well with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
let this blest assurance control,
that Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
and hath shed his own blood for my soul.
I instantly stopped and thanked God that he was reminding me that he was in control and everything is going to be ok… I serve an awesome God who cares about me! It’s hard sometimes to completely trust God with things… but He really is in control! That’s something I’ve been working on lately… just trusting Him and letting Him handle things the way He wants to handle them, not the way Zaneta wants to handle them…
I truly am so blessed! I love my life and the people in my life! It’s time to stop stressing out and start enjoying my life! It’s supposed to be fun, not stressful! Planning a wedding to the most wonderful guy, going back to school to get the career that I feel God has been planning for me to have and that I actually enjoy doing, and in the mean time, having a job that doesn’t mind working around my school schedule, and not to mention I have an awesome family and parents who are letting us live with them after we get married… I just needed that little reminder…It is well with my soul!!